I'm back!
I warn you this blog post is not really cooking related and may contain some moaning and an insight into the more bleak less organised side of my life....
For those of you that have noticed I've not really posted anything for about a month, reason being is I just ran out of steam! I suffer from a medical condition called Ankylosing Spondylitis (AS) which is an arthritic condition that effects all of my joints and can effect organs. With me it also effects my eyes (I get bouts of iritis) and my bowels. With joints hard tissue forms between joints which can then harden and turn in to bone, the end result is that bones fuse together. I take medication for the condition and also following lots of reviews and guidance from my consultant I do yoga every day to open my joints and prevent fusion and cycling etc to keep muscle at a good level to protect joints. Well... What has this got to do with my blog I hear you ask....? A side effect of AS is chronic fatigue. I don't just mean a little bit sleepy I mean fall asleep whilst standing up sleepy.
For awhile my work/job has been pretty stressful as I'm under staffed and trying to do several things at once. This results in me working really long days. It has been all I can do and taken every ounce of energy to get home at night, feed kids, get them to bed, finish whatever report I was working on then when I relax... I fall straight to sleep. So basically work and fatigue have taken over and I've been a bit if a zombie. My planning went out of window and yes if I'm honest we've lived on 50% take away as I've been in too much pain to stand in kitchen or honestly so tired the thought of cooking made me cry! So we have slowly used up all frozen meals I made, my husband has been cooking, I've done some simple meals or it's been take away.... I told you I was not superwoman! My friends probably wonder where I am as I have vanished, you see when I get like this I can't function, conversations are difficult to hold and just getting through the day is enough. It is really difficult to explain. Imagine you are just a shell, you see that you are you in the mirror and your going through your daily activities but that spark is missing. So I apologise to my friends, those close know me and understand but still I love you all and I'm not ignoring you.
Anyway I have just had a holiday, I feel refreshed and today finally I feel my old self. So it's back to planning :-) I'm about to go and plan this week, I have today off and will get myself sorted, shopping etc.
Spent the weekend in a tent looking at the sea, best tonic ever!
AS though does have its up sides... Without it I would not have gotten into cooking like I have, you see I researched how to naturally cope and found that by reducing certain food groups and processed foods you help your body as it uses less energy to process these foods and this energy can be used to fight the condition. So I reduced meat, gluten & processed foods and really did see a benefit. Please note I said reduced, you don't have to remove them, this makes life harder and I'm trying to improve. I told my consultant who thinks its great.
Also rather than breaking me down AS has made me stronger! Stronger in mind and more determined, nothing is going to beat me... It won't beat me!
So on a lighter note, I'm back, recharged and ready to get back into action and kick AS's butt! After all I have a family to take care of can't be sleeping... So less of that and back to food! Cheers 😊